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I assure you,i am like no others.
Future ruler of your world! Like me or hate me?
One me,Only Me~
I, me & myself.
My names Eimran jumahat
But ya can call me Shou,yan or panda.
I am of the male species =p.
Born on 5sep1992.
I love what i love and hate what i hate.
I wish for many things,
Future Designer to be~
Also a cosplayer~~~
im just so confused.....cause deep down somewhere i know it's not a crush....cause i know what a crush feel's like....and this feels nothing like a crush,
I want to protect her,I want to see her smile,I want to Love her,I want to know her more,I want to see her everyday,I want to hear her everyday,I want to talk with her everyday,
I just want to be with her.....
after like 3 months already since i told myself it's just a crush....in my heart... i still love her,to the point where i cry everyday when i think i made her upset with me.....
I cry now because i think i just made her want to ignore me completely......can i turn back time now?please?....
i love her smile,
I love her laugh
i love her attitude,
I love her beauty,
I love her cute-ness,
I love everything about her......
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there's nothing i hate about her...
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In my head i keep thinking.....If i can be like her crushes......would she like me?.......
i still will wait for her......no matter what.....
but im dying inside everyday as i love her more adn more
i'll continue next time ='(
Endless memories,
Never to be forgotten
Moody day=Awesome song?
Tuesday, May 10, 2011 // 6:24 AM
Yo so it's me again......and today is (gaki no tsukai gif day!)
well basicly today started off with me arriving class late......but no teacher was present to teach us......i know right?>>
so there's nothing much to do......i suddenly tot of one great idea...and many people loved it
....i played Gaki no tsukai on the main screen.....it was an awesome idea...
everyone was enjoying it......i felt a tad happy...even though i was moody =/
And after class end's Rai-N and Saba,wanna go eat prata...AND guess who just walked into class???
Az...my best friend!
at first i was like
than i suddenly remembered the days he never come......and i was like
....
than i was like....
...and than i went all moody again like
haha then he decided to tag along to go eat.....we walked there and it was Frikin hot....Super hot....
ATSUI!!
if i fainted there i would have been like this
...
but we reached and....i wasn't hungry at all........az wanted to treat me but i ended up not finishing it and he ate it all..haha
After that my design thinking was such a bore....there were alot of barrier there...lol...and i keep thinking about......mmm well just alot of thinking...
In my head i was like
but in reality it will never happen and i was like....
Haha so i went back straight after class ended.....and took the bus back....went to met az ,rai-n and cicak and budak Mengade nak mampos........they were a bore tak cakap langsung....i felt like there was no friendship between us anymore....i find them annoying really...and this added on to my mood.....
...
but i was abit happy cause sotong cheered me up...well tried to...but i was happy really ;)
even just now on Fb she asked if i was doing okay...and seriously i am now ;)...
she even intro me to a nice song and band....(its k-pop but i like this style of music)
B1A4....its nice...ill say that for the least....
all the way home with those msg......i was seriously like
But...all and all...im thank you...sincerely from my heart......and forgive me if i am troublesome....
but yeah...well i wanna go sleep early now......night all.....
Greatly in Love,
King of "Retawesome"
Panda Man!
Endless memories,
Never to be forgotten
how much closer now?
Monday, May 9, 2011 // 11:03 AM
YOOO!!!!haha im still not asleep,(GOLDEN BOMBER GIF DAY)
time to blog about today.....i mean yesterday....i mean ahh watever man~~~
haha
Anyways im just curious.......am i getting closer ? is it as a good friend or as?....I DONT KNOW ANYMORE!!!
But here's one thing i know.....i am willing to wait...and heartache about other guys you talk about...will only make me stronger...;...
but i feel that you do it on purpose...i know that you know....i think...lol
haha
i wonder what do you want?....keep wondering about it....
Do you go for looks?...
......if so than i will work out more......
Do you go by interest?
than im sorry im not into your interest...=/
do you go by personality?
Than maybe i should be more outstanding....
maybe like this?
Haha.....i know ppl say dont change for love...but now i know why people do change.....
But i know it sounds desperate.and that its not like me....
Thats the thing...its not like me at all...and i personally like this feeling.....the selfish me wants to change for the other significant,willing to do anything,willing to spend anything i got.......
haaaa..my hair is gonna drop out i tell ya
ouh well i just want you to know....
if youre reading this which you are not.....i think.,......
i want to let you know....
that i really love you...........
yes love....
not like......
but love............
i love the way you talk,'
i love the way you care for your family,
i love the way you look,
i love the way you laugh,
i love the way you sing,
i love the way you ignore people...with"ouh its sounds interesting..ah oh yes im listening"
i love the way you dress ,
i love the way you act shy,
i love the way you get angry,
i love the way you sniffle your nose,
i love the way you call my name,
i love how you reject people treating you even though i can hear your stomach roaring for food
i love how you act all innocent when in-fact you whispered to yourself "annoying much...."
i love the way you are so hard working and so focused on something you do
i love the way you try to get on everyone's good side
i love the way you think and design
i love the way you unconsciously talk about stuff
i love the way you weirdly make hand gesture to yourself when you think,(even though its quiet distracting)
i love the way you make funny faces when you talk
i love the way you analyse people unconsciously
i love everything there is to love about you...even if its a bit annoying haha
i love the way you think deep
i love the way you play with my heart weather you know it or not.....
.........i seriously can go on forever
but what i really love is...you being who you are.......
haaaaa but you will never know .man i feel like hinata right now....
but........sometimes you are annoying too......and i dont like it.....but it's.......... changing me to like you more.......weird.... i know.......
i want to be with you every second cause you make me feel warm,comfortable,true to myself,think im funny myself......and mostly true to my heart
Its strange for me to even type this you know?...let alone say it out....haaaaaa im pathetic.....
i don't mind waiting.....and be your bestfriend....cause what we have now...our friendship....i dont want to lose it..................
well anyway i think i got to go sleep now.........got too much on my mind now...
Signing off,
Tall giant...Tiny heart,
Shou~
Endless memories,
Never to be forgotten
Cover me in a Blanket in this hot day~
Sunday, May 8, 2011 // 8:26 AM
Os!*WELCOME!
be prepared for ARASHI GIF SPAM FOR BLOG DAY BUT NOT ALOT CAUSE IT WILL BE ANNOYING DAY!!!
haha well never tot i will revive this darn thing ...haha ohwell here i am~~
Mmm nothing much has change since than i guess,Happier now thou...haha
But abit one sided maybe LOL(inside joke)
haha either way,Today nothing much happened,Played Fallout 3 like mad,than played White knight than after that i did some PROP ACTION!!!
YEAH!! haha im almost done with my gauntlet!!yay me!
but other than that...my wig....haaaa...gotta order soon and i mean SOON...lol
Mom cooked last min,(thanks mom)but i wasnt hungry at all...SUPRISING!
so i forced myself to eat cause i love my mom that much~~
MAMA AI-DES!
LOLS
AND WHAT IS WIITH THE INTENSE HEAT????
haha but i will still sleep with a blanky~~~cause its just to uncomfortable for me without it =/....
The pretty scenery in your eyes, are they welcoming me into it? or am i just struck by your beauty?
Please just let me go, Your hair softer than silk Your lips only seduces me Let me go,even if it kills me!
Every time i see you alone, you stared into nothing what do you see? Eternity is still far away Everytime i hear your voice, it speaks only sorrow WHat are you really feeling in your heart?
Please just let me go, What more do you want to take? My heart is more than enough, Let me go cruel goddess
Our soul Cursed by faith, Only you can escape it, But why do you not free yourself? Have you found the thing you wanted most? Why do they seperate us? reaching out your hands, i tried to grab it, but failed, Faith hates us being together
Please just let me go, Your eyes tells only truth you have my love now Let me go cruel goddess, let me go
still traped, have you found the thing you wanted most? if so free yourelf from the cage it just wasn't meant to be, so let me go Cruel goddess Let me go beautiful goddess Let me go Sad goddess
Just go with him, I know you want too, Im not holding you back, its the other way round, My love, my keeper
Let yourself go, Let yourself go, Free yourself, my lonely goddess
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